Anniversary, honoring loss Moms & ugly crying

Yesterday Zach and I celebrated our 3 year anniversary. It may not seem like much to most, or in any way an accomplishment, but I’ve always said it’s felt like we’ve been married a million years because of everything we’ve been through and done in such a short time. By our one year anniversary we had already experienced some of the hardest things most couples will never go through in the lifetime of their marriage. I’m proud that we’ve made it here. It hasn’t been easy in the least bit and it hasn’t always been roses, but I feel like if we can survive through the loss of our beautiful Averie, we can survive anything. We made a pact the day we lost her, and promised to her and ourselves we wouldn’t let losing her break us. We have kept that promise. 

After our one year anniversary we made a video and did a recap of the year. We watched it yesterday morning and it was crazy to see how much we’ve changed. We had lost Averie just two months prior, the pain still so fresh. We decided to do another video yesterday and make it a yearly tradition. Except for last year, I don’t even have a picture or memory of our second anniversary. How sad is that? All I know is we moved into our home two days before and I was pregnant with Isabella. Hopefully from here on out we can keep it up and give Isabella something to laugh at when she’s older. I love you Zach so much! Thank you for putting up with me, allowing me to be myself, loving me and being my rock ❤

With Mothers Day coming up, my sweet sister Vanessa was inspired to remember and honor the loss Mom community. Mothers Day is such a cruel day after you’ve lost a child. I had talked to Vanessa about wanting to do t-shirts for loss Moms since so many want a way to honor their babies or just have validation that they are in fact Mothers though their children are not in their arms. I collaborated with her and my brother in law on designing some t-shirts in which she will sell at her boutique online The Nest on Main. I’m so excited for this because having experienced Mothers Day without a child I know how it feels to be the silent Mother, the one nobody knows is a Mother. I created a video about my experience last Mothers Day (my nephew is editing it) and yes there is ugly crying but I hope the message will overshadow that and help other Moms feel comfort. Once it’s done I’ll post it.  Here is the shirt I will be wearing this Mother’s Day, though more styles are coming very soon!! Another awesome part is they are donating 20% of the sale of these shirts to Averie’s Angels so that we can help other families that have and sadly will experience the loss of a child. 

I’ve also contacted some amazing loss Moms to see if they would be willing to be highlighted so we can share them and their precious babies with others. It’s my hope that their stories will help bring comfort to others. I will be posting each one on my blog starting very soon so stay tuned! If you would like to be highlighted and share your story email me at If you would rather just read about these amazing ladies follow my blog so you don’t miss out 😊❤

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  1. afterevalyn

    April 20, 2017 at 12:57 pm

    What an amazing idea! I love the T shirts! . . . And a very Happy Anniversary to you both xxx

    1. Crystal S

      April 20, 2017 at 4:49 pm

      Thank you momma!! ❤❤

  2. jenjen06

    April 20, 2017 at 6:13 pm

    I love the t-shirt idea too! I can’t wait to see what else you guys design for mother’s day

    1. Crystal S

      April 23, 2017 at 11:32 am

      They are finally available I’m so excited! I’ll post about them soon ❤

      1. jenjen06

        May 4, 2017 at 3:47 pm

        I got my shirt ordered! I can’t wait!!

        1. Crystal S

          May 4, 2017 at 6:06 pm

          Yay!! That makes me so happy to hear!! Which one did you end up getting??

          1. jenjen06

            May 4, 2017 at 9:59 pm

            I picked the mint mommy of an angel shirt

          2. Crystal S

            May 5, 2017 at 11:32 am

            When you get it would you mind sending me a pic of you wearing it?? 😊💕

          3. Crystal S

            May 5, 2017 at 12:16 pm

            Also we’ve decided to keep highlighting loss Moms once a week starting in June would you be interested in being highlighted?? Let me know ❤️

          4. jenjen06

            May 6, 2017 at 5:09 pm

            I am interested… I’ll email you soon

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