Emotions

One year ago 

Just the other day I thought back to last year at this time and how much things have changed. It feels like just yesterday me in Utah, Zach in Afghanistan. Separated once again. This time it what different. I was pregnant. October was significant for a few reasons. I’ve always loved Halloween but this particular October we had found out we were expecting a baby girl. I remember scheduling the appointment for the earliest one in the morning. With the time difference it would be night across the world making Zach available to join me in this moment. Thank goodness for FaceTime and technology. I arrived earlier with my sister Trish and my mother in law met us at the doctors office. Zach and I had talked about what we thought we were having and I just knew it would be a girl. I can’t tell you why or how, I just knew. We got called back to the ultra sound room and I called Zach. He came up on my screen flashing his beautiful smile. We were ready for the big news! Averie didn’t make it very difficult for us to see that she was a girl. It’s almost like she knew what we were doing. The technician called out the obvious that we were having a girl. Our little girl. I instantly thought of how spoiled she would be, and how she would be a daddy’s girl. She would have him wrapped around her little finger. Zachs smile got even bigger with the news. Life was good. Yes we were separated but we would be parents and we were so happy about things to come. Thanks to my sister Trish she got everything on video. You can always count on her to capture the beautiful moments in life and I love her for that.

I think now to this moment and how Zach and I are back together again but now we are separated from Averie. I read a quote recently that said “I hide my tears when I say your name but the pain in my heart is still the same. Although I smile and seem care free there is no one who misses you more then me.” 

Until we see you again sweet Averie, Daddy and I will always be missing you xoxo 

  

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