At first the thought of the holidays was a huge pit in my stomach. An inevitable pain that I wasn’t ready to deal with. Us attempting to tackle the holidays without Averie seemed unrealistic and in a way disrespectful. I needed time to think about it. I looked online at everything to see what others had done but nothing resonated with me completely. I looked on Etsy and found an ornament for baby loss and thought I was going to buy it. And then. I. didn’t. Why? It was beautiful but in my opinion not right for us. Then I had the idea to make our own ornament and put our precious angel on our tree. I shared the idea to Zach about a week ago and he was on board. We went and got everything last night and tonight we made that idea a reality. It may seem to most not a big deal. Or in a way tacky or lame but I do not care. Since hanging this on our tree I know our baby girl will be here with us for the holidays and for every single year after this. Her younger siblings will hang her ornament up year after year each Christmas in remembrance. Remembering her fight, her life, her legacy, and above all the ultimate love we have for her.