January is over as of tonight at midnight and with that I am leaving a few things behind and holding my breath as we enter the month of February.
Orange hair. Yeah I had it and it’s nothing I’m proud of. Apparently the water up here is so full of minerals and it causes things to turn rust colored. You would think since the sinks, toilets, and showers all turned that color I would have put two and two together. I didn’t. My incredibly sweet new hairdresser had to point it out to me. In an attempt to save money I tried bleaching my hair twice and twice it didn’t turn out because the orange wouldn’t fade. Due to a generous early birthday gift (you know who you are ❤) I was able to go get my hair done at the salon. It’s been almost 2 years since I had my hair professionally done. I had it done days after losing Averie for my birthday and the girl did a horrible job. I never wrote about it at the time but the sweet girl was chop happy. I told her to just give me a trim and it ended up being crooked and way shorter then I wanted. Needless to say I went home and cried and pulled at my hair hoping that I could stretch it longer. Since then I’ve attempted doing it myself and sometimes it’s worked out lately not so much since I decided to go back blonde. That’s when the orange thing happened. Last Saturday I got it done and I’m happy to say I am orange free, for now.
My mouth pain has been a PAIN quite literally. I had two crowns done at the end of December and since then have had consistent pain. My bite was adjusted twice and twice I went home only to still be in pain. I survived on ibuprofen but feared for my kidneys after a month of using them. Feeling desperate I decided to do a castor oil pack on my face. If you don’t know me I’m sort of obsessed with castor oil and all the amazing things it does. I did the pack 20 min each day for just two days. I woke up last Friday and had no pain and hadn’t taken any medicine in over 24 hours. Even still, almost a week later, I’m in no pain AND can actually chew on the side with the crowns. Thank you castor oil!
Now I can focus on February. February is such a bitter sweet month. Averie’s 2nd Birthday is coming up and I’m joyfully turning one year older just 6 days later. I’m excited to be able to honor my little girl and celebrate her but I would be lying to say it doesn’t hurt knowing we have to celebrate another birthday without our girl.
I recently told Zach I wanted to look at the pictures that a photographer from Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep took. He seemed surprised because I’ve been avoiding looking at them since we received them. I couldn’t and still haven’t mustered up the strength to look at pictures of us falling to pieces while our daughter takes her last breath. The thought of it still scares me but I keep thinking about them. We we see if I can muster up the strength.
Here we go February, let’s do this.